Sometimes there are obstacles.

And they make things a little bit more difficult.
Obstacles aren't set up for failure.
They want you to overcome them.


Lately, I've been quite moody. And somewhat agitated with everyone and everything. But at the end of the day I still have my friends and family. Oh, let's not forget Dylan.

Obstacles are put in front of us to help us. They're there because everyone knows you can hurdle right over it. And if there weren't any hindrances in life then wouldn't life be a bit too easy? Don't expect life to be simple. It doesn't come with directions and no one wins. And if you're expecting to come out alive, then I wish you good luck, because in the end we all die.

Do not set out to look for a perfect person. Where you can share a perfect relationship and everything will be all fine and dandy. Because that's never going to happen. And if you ever come upon a relationship like that then I'm going to tell you now that it's probably the most unhealthy relationship you're going to find. Every relationship has obstacles, complications, and impediments. And the goal is to withstand them. You've got to fight to be together. It's what love is all about. And if you find the fight worth it, I'm fairly sure that you're in love. You cannot give up. Also, do not believe that because you won the last battle that the war is over. You've got many more battles to come. Fighting them together brings you closer.

So the last two weeks have been wonderful. I've met a lot of new people. I've had a lot of fun. I couldn't have asked for anything more. I'm so very glad that James Dylan Napier came into my life. It's great. I'm not saying we're perfect but through my eyes I find our relationship to be quite flawless. And I absolutely love it. He's more than a spectacular boyfriend. It's only been about 2 weeks, and I'm happier than ever. I already love the kid. I mean this is a shocker. You'd think that after everything I've been through I would take the longest time to have those feelings again. I'm not "in love", so don't get me wrong. Do not twist my words. I'm sure that will take a long long long time. But as of right now I'm genuinely blissful.

Intense conversation.

With the one I love, the one I value.
I have never been so comfortable with someone so easily.

I love him to death already. Our prolonged night of intense conversation was very much needed and was a great start to a magnificent relationship. He makes me extremely jovial. I love how we can share almost everything without feeling too uneasy. He tends to put a smile on my face if not a silly one. There isn't any other boy who can make me feel this jubilant at the moment. I believe I have acquired a lot from our great conversation. I now understand that he does in fact care for me a lot. I never thought I'd encounter another person who could effortlessly capture my soul and warm my heart. You will hear me say that often, but it's certainly true. He's as genuine as a person can get. When I asked him the usual question everyone asks, "What have you done?" He was so hesitant to answer. And it made me laugh just a little. I was thinking in my head, "What is this boy ashamed of?" In the end he came out to be the most innocent of upcoming high school students, which made me beyond pleased. He made me smile. And he has kept that smile on my face ever since. I cannot help but to say "I love you," nonstop. I love that he's so easy to get a long with. He enjoys hanging out with my little brother, my only sibling. Which couldn't make me any more thrilled. And I love his family as well. It's just so easy to be his girlfriend. And I hope I make it as easy for him as well. I again am glad God has blessed me with an Angel I can call my boyfriend. I'm so grateful to be bless with such a wonderful person. He's like a talk glass of lemonade when it's hot on summer days. He's exactly what I need. He's soothing like the ocean rushing on the sand. He takes care of me. He helps be a better woman. And I thank you very much James Dylan Napier.



I went to The Outbreak Student Ministry today as I always do each Wednesday evening. There were more people there than usual. And it brought a smile upon my face. People my age are actually taking time out of their day to really praise the Lord; to actually learn more about Jesus. They could be doing anything, playing their Xbox, surfing the net, shopping, hanging out with their friends, do drugs, have sex, sleep. But, they decided to step it up and do something that is important. Something that is vital or should be a main essential in their life. And I would like to thank everyone who has been making this incredible decision. Good job guys. May god bless you all.

When we exchange words.

I can't take my mind off of him.
And My heart beats a little bit faster.
It's racing but it has no idea where the finish line is.

I've been my making my own decisions lately and I'm glad I made the last one. I feel overly prestigious for being able to be the one girl he wants to be with, the girl he desires. Am I being too dramatic? Are my feelings stupid? I think not. Anyone that knows me would know that he is my savior. He's my way out. The guy that came and swept me off my feet. I'm grateful that our feelings are mutual. I thought 2010 would be a horrendous year. Everything was going haywire, my mind was all jumbled and my heart was fried. As soon as I got saved and I sought for God's help not even weeks later did he grant me with an Angel. I'm glad that I finally found someone that makes me happy even when I'm mad. I'm glad I found someone that in so little time I could open my heart to, someone I can be myself around. Funny thing, we're a bit opposite. He's shy around people he might have to be around a lot. And I'm shy around people I'll never see again. He thinks a lot before he talks or takes action, and I only do during "important" times - we all know those times. This guy makes me beyond happy. He warms my heart, captures my soul, and makes me feel ecstatic. I don't ever recall being this happy to have someone new walk into my life. I thank God for this gift. By the way, James your voice is amazing. You have the power to sing me to sleep, make me laugh, and or just entertain me. I love it (:

In love, not yet.

I'm glad I've made the decision.
I'm glad I found someone new.
I'm glad I can start over.
I've gotten saved.
And you've came to my rescue.
No, not only God.
But him, you know who you are.

I'm glad I've made the choice to link myself with him. To make it official. He makes me smile like the sun. He's great. When he asked me why I liked him, my mind went blank. Then all of a sudden it all came to me. He's something new. It's the start of a new beginning. He makes me happy. So far he's given me everything beyond my wildest dreams. He makes me feel comfortable. And I feel like I can be myself. It's just great. At this point in time, I couldn't be any happier. I love how this is going. Thanks James.

The day has come.

That will make everything change.
It's the start of something new.
It ends concludes the chapter.
And officially begins another.

Lately, I've been really busy. I've had drivers school, cheerleading, soccer, and what not. Now that I have nothing to do today, I'm pretty happy. But, the day has come and things are going to change from here. Whether people accept it or not. I'm pretty jubilant. It's time to celebrate. Going to cut it short. I've got to suppress it for a while.

My cerebellum isn't working.

Yeah it's true.

My cerebellum isn't working properly. Or at least it isn't functioning the way I would like it to. It's supposed to help you with your everyday motor skills, your balance, coordination, precision, and timing. So I blame my poor ineffective cerebellum for not being able to aid me in my ambition of wanting to get my running tumbling down. Stupid cerebellum. You know it also controls fears. So yeah. It provides me with fear. It let me down. Bahahaa, sorry poor cerebellum, I still love you.

Well, cheerleading has been great so far. We get a lot accomplished at each practice. It's a big change from last year and I absolutely love it. I love the girls. I love how we're all one big happy family. Well at least for now. It's quite exciting. We have had a home camp which is basically conditioning and prepping for NCA camp at Canal. NCA camp is on Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. I cannot wait.

Soccer. That's a whole other subject. I loved it. Today was my first practice. And even though I didn't do much because I was dehydrated and kept passing out, I'm sure it isn't bad. The heat was horrible though. The girls are great. And it's a whole different field. I'm not going to say it's nothing compared to cheerleading. They're equally complex and hard. Just in their own little ways. I would love to take both, but I am not sure about the outcome right now. We'll see how the summer goes.

Birthday, Fireworks, Cheerleading,

It's all madness, but I love it.

My birthday was a crazy day. A good turn out but a rainy one at that. Thanks everyone for attending my sweet sixteen. It was a pleasure to have all you guys out here.

Fireworks makes me feel like a pyromaniac. I love the smell of it. I love watching it. But disappointingly I had no sweetheart to share it with. Thank god, I have best friends.

Cheerleading, my one passion. I love it. We're doing new things. We're having a blast. We're in pain, we're sore, but it's worth it. We are a new team, a great one at that.

So, the past couple of weeks have been a tad bit crazy. I really don't know what to type on here. So I'll just post my schedule, just in case you guys want to stalk me, bahhaa.


Monday
Drivers ED 6-10.

Tuesday
Home Cheer Camp 2-5
Drivers Ed 6-10

Wednesday
Home Cheer Camp 2 -5
Parent Meeting 5 - whenever.

Thursday - Saturday.
NCA Cheer Camp 9-4