I've lost my mind.

But there's no doubt it's somewhere around here.
I've lost my mind and found it seconds later.
And seconds later I lost it again.
There's no doubt.

I haven't posted in more than a week and It has been driving me crazy. Let me start by saying that my hard drive crashed and I had to wait the whole weekend. So now I have less than a week to get my homework done. And football season is starting up again. And I cannot wait till school. I'm more than excited. But all of this is besides the point.

I keep losing my mind, my sense of control and my ability to think things through. I mean I don't lose it for long, it's less than a second I can assure you. But, the thought of actually losing it so often kind of frightens me. I fall in and out of love in what seems like a blink of an eye. I stumble upon long lost friends. I hangout with people I never thought I'd be friends with and I just have been going back and forth between who I am, who I aspire to be, and who I was. I'm not sure if that makes any sense in your minds but I'm sure you'll understand by the end of this post. I guess you could say who you were lead up to who you currently are and who you currently are leads you to who you aspire to be.

I was a all around excellent student. I was super outgoing, yet timid at the same time. I was the little sister everyone of the boys liked. I could talk to anyone without being misunderstood or misinterpreted for being "flirtatious".

Now, I'm president of the class. I'm still and all round excellent student. I like sports way more. I'm super outgoing and can be super shy at unnecessary times. My mind is always open for new things. I've been taken for the past 4 years it seems like. I absolutely love cheerleading. I hangout with my friends all the time and I keep myself busy.

I'd like to keep being a great student. I'd like to open my mind to new things a bit more. I'd like to experience something new. I want to be a bit more reserved and think about college and my future a bit more also. I want to be more patient and just an overall more mature young lady.

I love this guy. He's cool. We learn a bit more about each other everyday, no lie. I'm not fibbing. We see each other everyday whether its for a second or for 12 hours it seems like. I'm not sure if I'm falling quite yet, because I've learned to keep my walls up for a longer period. I've been known to be a soft person. I take criticism from anyone and I don't lie to hurt peoples feelings, but I do stick up for myself. I'm just not ready to be hurt again. Not that I think he'll hurt me or anything. I'm just not very sure of myself. I'm quite indecisive. I guess we'll just have to keep going. Only the future holds the truth. I know I'll be losing my mind a lot soon.

School is starting up in less than 2 weeks (: I am so beyond excited. I guess you can say I'm "geeked". I cannot wait. I am a huge nerd. I love school. Being the president makes it even more better. I love the environment, I just love everything about it. It's wonderful. I should stop talking about it, before I get too worked up.