Friendships, a millions words.

Friendships have been broken,
And friendships will be made.
I'm sure of it.

Lately, people have been saying I've gone haywire. But, maybe its what I want you all to ponder about. I know secretly you guys are all deliberating upon it. Don't get me wrong, I'm not doing this for my enjoyment or for pleasure. It may seem like I am being tactless. And I'm sorry. It's just that I told myself this summer that I'm not going to let anyone get in the way. I'm going to do what I want. And if you want to you can join or you can leave me. It's not like I criticized your way of "living" or have pushed you out of the way. It's just that I wanted to do something for myself for once. It may make you feel uneasy, probably because I've never been this way. But I do hope that all of you who still care to my friend can become accustomed to it. As of right now I'm in the state of recuperating. Everyone should know that. Everyone should know that it's hard enough for me as it is and that if anyone gets in the way of this process, that I physically and mentally need then, it's not going to be good. And if you didn't know that then sorry. I'm sorry for anyone who has been unintentionally hurt during this process. Hopefully you also can recuperate.

I have made many friends lately. And I thank you all so much for being there for me. Though you guys probably didn't even notice what you were doing. You guys are helping me day by day become "me" again. The happy go lucky Megan Khay Phimmasone. I just have been thinking about the old days. The times where I had many friends. A lot of acquaintances, rather than only a couple close friends. It made me feel more secure. And I'm still indecisive. I still don't know which made me happier. And that's what this "process" is helping me to figure out. I hope everyone can just accept that, I need time right now. I want to become friends with all those people I've slowly lost throughout the years. And when I feel I've done that then, I then will feel I have consummate something.

All in all,
My head will sink, and my head will float.
Let it be.

And when I'm ready you will know.